Dreams can be crazy little portals into what the hell is going on in your brain. I just wish I could feel rested the next day instead of exhausted as if I physically endured what unfolded in my mind. It was a wild ride last night and honestly, I'm not sure how I feel about …
When nightmares feel all to real
Most of my nightmares consist of me running, forever it seems. Being chased or chasing someone or something. Thankfully in my dreams I have stamina and the endurance to keep running. I often wake up with my legs feeling sore at times. I also tend to get into these grand battles, always fighting. Winning some, …
Today was a hard day
Today was a hard day. Days similar to today have tried to break me and sometimes I think where I find my strength is keeping it all deep inside of me wrapped up tightly with all the other things I bury for the sake of others. I often write about how being bipolar feels to …
Words and stuff
Poetry from my past often shows me I am still the same person dealing with the same things. As someone with Bipolar Disorder has to. With how much the people in my life have changed over the years I wonder why not me? Do I know who am I? Is this why I am so …
Cinderella isn’t Dressed in Yellow, She’s Dressed in Black and She’s Depressed
Cinderella isn't dressed in yellow. She's dressed in black. And she's depressed, in pain, ill and exhausted but still getting the damn job done. She's on mood stabilizers that don't help nearly as much now that she quit smoking cigarettes. She doesn't live with step relatives but blood and her dad isn't dead but he's …
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From my personal journal during a bipolar episode
I'm sharing this again because for me, it's important to share my struggles. In hopes that other's will see there is still reason for hope. I still have bad days. Hard days. Now, my good days are filled with so much love and joy and kindness, it truly makes these bad days easier to survive. …
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Endure. Survive. Endure.
I looked at the ground, my heart broke. It took a deep breath in and tried to retain all the pieces it seemed to be in now. It didn't. It couldn't but be damned it still tried. Sometimes in life you are sitting still as the world rushes by you. Others, you don't have enough …
Cover reveal of Keren Hughes debut novel, Stolen
I'm super excited to be apart of the cover real of Keren Hughes's book Stolen. She is an amazing woman who I met when I was searching for someone to review my first book Finding Alice. She is a breath of fresh air and I know from speaking to her on many occasions that her …
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Personal journal entry
Here is an entry from my private journal. Honestly it's on the lighter side, not sure what that says about my inner struggles.October 2013:I feel as if I'm floating through a sea of shadows. My mind is as tired as my body. I try to find the lighter side of things but the irritation of …